How do I get over an obsessive teacher crush?

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I [21F] am having an overwhelming, overly obsessive crush on my university programming teacher [38M]. Ever since the start of the year (when I first met him) I couldn't stop thinking about him. He is kind, attentive and has this pleasant type of nerdiness in him.
I'm an artist, and I didn't noticed how I filled ≈100+ A4 pages with drawings of him. This looks unhealthy. Worse than that, I ended up collecting personal info on him, even though I never wanted to cross his boundaries.
The fact that his opinion matters to me so much makes me worry 10x times more when I can't solve a problem well or when I don't pass a project in time. I want to make him proud, but I'm as dumb as a log.
Maybe it's not even romantic - I just see him as a parent figure, something that I was searching in others since early childhood. A single hug from him or a pat on the shoulder could heal me.

Sorry for posting such vents in here, I just feel like the community here will understand it better than anywhere else. Anyway, what do I do?

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remember nothing GOOD can ever come out of it, LOL

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It almost sounds like you're stalking him.  Be careful.  He's only symbolizing something you need in your life.  Figure out what it is and maybe the obsession will disappear.  It's sounds like you need some healing, but I doubt he's the one who can heal you, as you mentioned he could.

 

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I'm not sure if this story is real or not.

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I [21F] am having an overwhelming, overly obsessive crush on my university programming teacher [38M]. Ever since the start of the year (when I first met him) I couldn't stop thinking about him. He is kind, attentive and has this pleasant type of nerdiness in him.
I'm an artist, and I didn't noticed how I filled ≈100+ A4 pages with drawings of him. This looks unhealthy. Worse than that, I ended up collecting personal info on him, even though I never wanted to cross his boundaries.
The fact that his opinion matters to me so much makes me worry 10x times more when I can't solve a problem well or when I don't pass a project in time. I want to make him proud, but I'm as dumb as a log.
Maybe it's not even romantic - I just see him as a parent figure, something that I was searching in others since early childhood. A single hug from him or a pat on the shoulder could heal me.

Sorry for posting such vents in here, I just feel like the community here will understand it better than anywhere else. Anyway, what do I do?

Well it wayyyy to big of an age gap