Why Am I Like this? ( PornAddiction Issue )

[8]

fellas, why the fuck am i like this.  I need ur Help seriously plz.

I deleted all OF, porn content and commited myself for nofap,
even stop carding porn accounts, selling OF Accounts (thought its triggering me into this)

I made this decision 6 months earlier. Even I posted thread to CRACKED (here is that post), and other social medias. Hoping this make my willpower even stronger.

But I failed,
during this period,

I have fapped like more than 150 times ( Yeah, It's little improvement cuz usually do more than this.)

The thing I can force myself to go weeks without watching it. But When I slip, things go out of hand. I started to fap like ~15 times in a single day.

FYI ;
1. Age 22(M), Student
2. Use of Abusive Substances: NO 
3. Stress Issue: NO ( maybe little bit from College and shit)
4. I spend most of the time using PC (ScreenTime: ~13 hrs), yeah, I'm nerd. Also I don't talk to girls and don't have GF. but I usually go out for evening walk for refreshment.

This is my daily schedule. Don't know what still triggering me into this.
How can I overcome this urges?  .... This addiction has fucked my life completely.

At, this point I am feeling suicidal.

counting on you, B!

 

Have you ever considered getting some help and talking things with a psychiatrist?

[14]

fellas, why the fuck am i like this.  I need ur Help seriously plz.

I deleted all OF, porn content and commited myself for nofap,
even stop carding porn accounts, selling OF Accounts (thought its triggering me into this)

I made this decision 6 months earlier. Even I posted thread to CRACKED (here is that post), and other social medias. Hoping this make my willpower even stronger.

But I failed,
during this period,

I have fapped like more than 150 times ( Yeah, It's little improvement cuz usually do more than this.)

The thing I can force myself to go weeks without watching it. But When I slip, things go out of hand. I started to fap like ~15 times in a single day.

FYI ;
1. Age 22(M), Student
2. Use of Abusive Substances: NO 
3. Stress Issue: NO ( maybe little bit from College and shit)
4. I spend most of the time using PC (ScreenTime: ~13 hrs), yeah, I'm nerd. Also I don't talk to girls and don't have GF. but I usually go out for evening walk for refreshment.

This is my daily schedule. Don't know what still triggering me into this.
How can I overcome this urges?  .... This addiction has fucked my life completely.

At, this point I am feeling suicidal.

counting on you, B!

 

you can overcome this!

[49]

Honestly, you're young, you're going to have a natural high sex drive because of peaking testosterone levels but also porn addiction can also be just because of too much free time and boredom. 

It is a heavily dopamine inducing activity, it rewards the rewarding system in the brain but too much of it is bad. 
This has been the case for many I know and I myself experienced it but what worked for me is just keeping busy with goals and other stuff.

Example would be my martial art training, I was busy with that 5-6 days a week, didn't even think about masturbation at all and it also helped me connect with loads of people.

[283]

15 times a day is a bit much OP! Think about the body diaspora that comes with it.

I hope you find your way.

[57]

You're jerking off too much because you have a lot of free time and you're bored.Try to do something like for example,go take a walk,ride a bycicle,go outside,go to gym,etc..Just do something so you won't think about masturbating and you'll be fine.

[6.261]

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[116]

it's an addiction and like all addicts, you need help. Seek help if you truly want to stop