A dark and shadowy figure

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I shit this out of myself for 2 purposes. To get myself accustomed to writing/sharing my works and to hopefully find my desired type of writing whilst exploring these subjects. Analyzing my inclinations for path i might one day go down. 

I know it's shit - I'm just practicing  


it's been said that there is a shadowy hand effectively conveying its wishes upon the world through a pervasive and dark influence creeping
into every crevice of our existence, be in the coffee shops we attend, the news we watch, the vehicles we transport recording our every movement
the phones listening to our conversations or the computers tracking all of the above. 
 Most would think that a person who believes in such a pervasive darkness would be insane or a lunatic..catering to crazy thoughts belonging 
in an asylum soon to be lobotomized for their insanity. 
 But it's a peculiar concept isn't it, this notion that there is such a presence like that in the world..not unlike the concept of god wouldn't you think...all powerful..all controlling..an explanation behind the seemingly impossible to comprehend facets of our existence we've yet to
fully understand. 
 Who can comprehend the things we see and hear about on a daily basis, war, divorce, terrorism, a broken system exploiting the working class
political influences manipulating the very fabric of said system for or against us who can say it all appears to be a complete and utter 
uncontrollable crap shoot. 
 We just want control back to a time before we became aware of all of these aspects of life we're forced to confront as adults. Make the world smaller and more simple and what’s more simple than a dark shadowy figure pulling the strings behind every grim and terrible thing we seem destined to explore.

I don't want to explore these realities anymore than another person would, the very thought that walking outside i could experience something horrendous as these aforementioned concepts bewilders intimidates and worries me. 
 I don't like to think about them, there’s so many things ready to cause us unfathomable pain and suffering. Just the very thought of experiencing them alone makes me want to shut down completely. 
 Turning off my brain is simpler than having to acknowledge these concepts and to live with a pervasive awareness…that not only are they possible they feel impending, like they’re moments away from happening in my own existence. It feels like i’m almost on the cusp of being confronted by the presence of these horrendous and borderline unspeakably horrific experiences any moment  
 It’s difficult to acknowledge these realities let alone even understand them,

*ALERT* I HAVE IMPOSTERS, CONFIRM ALL DEALS ON C.IO DM'S *ALERT*

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not bad, really got me involved in it for a second

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it's normal to feel overwhelmed by the negative aspects of the world, and it's understandable to want to turn away from them.

However, acknowledging and facing these realities can also lead to growth and positive change. Instead of shutting down completely, it may be helpful to find healthy ways to cope with these feelings, such as seeking support from friends and family, practicing self-care, and getting involved in causes that align with your values.

It's also important to keep a balanced perspective and remember that there are also many positive things happening in the world, and that we have the power to make a difference in our own lives and the lives of others.

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@J_S tabootard is back :forlulz:

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taboo baboo

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I've missed your nonsensical ramblings