OP 26 September, 2023 - 02:43 PM
This story is only for people who have been haunted like me.
Before starting the story, I would like to introduce a little about myself
I am 20 years old and was a hacker when I was quite young at 15 years old and used to be a bad hacker, I live in a rapidly developing country and my life has been through a lot of sadness. I am always compared to my friends and always looked down upon in the environment I live in. Perhaps you have experienced the feeling of anxiety when you are afraid that others will know what you know, the loopholes, the techniques, the tips that you think only you know and no one else knows.
Yes, I'm the same as you. I have a few acquaintances who always want to learn from me, but they won't say it directly "I want to learn abcxyz from you, please show me" but "I don't know this, do you know it?" ?"
And of course I have shared it with them because they are my acquaintances, but I will only briefly say it and not say anything extra so that they can explore and learn for themselves.
because I'm afraid they know what I had to spend nearly 20 hours a day over the years to learn and do my own research. That's something I've encountered many times, it makes me have a feeling of anxiety and fear that they will learn what I share with them, they will become arrogant and forget what I have helped them .I was so obsessed
made me always fear that someone was watching me inside my computer even though there were no viruses, so I created some software to remove viruses.
but when it got to this point I realized WTF why should I be afraid of other people knowing what I've learned? As long as they have cloudy eyes due to continuously watching computers for long periods of time, spending almost all their time on work,
and go through the challenges that happen when coding, and a few years to understand what they're doing, they'll be as good as me, if it only took them a few months and a few years to learn everything I know, then I will congratulate them because they are a Genius I cannot compare with them
Maybe they are people that I will need to learn from in the future, instead of hating them. Since the thought popped into my head, I have temporarily stopped being obsessed with other people knowing about what I know. Even if I don't tell them, they will probably know at some point.
In a quote from someone I don't remember clearly: "Always compare yourself with who you were yesterday, instead of comparing with others" that won't do any good and it will only make you feel worse. You just worry and overthink
Before starting the story, I would like to introduce a little about myself
I am 20 years old and was a hacker when I was quite young at 15 years old and used to be a bad hacker, I live in a rapidly developing country and my life has been through a lot of sadness. I am always compared to my friends and always looked down upon in the environment I live in. Perhaps you have experienced the feeling of anxiety when you are afraid that others will know what you know, the loopholes, the techniques, the tips that you think only you know and no one else knows.
Yes, I'm the same as you. I have a few acquaintances who always want to learn from me, but they won't say it directly "I want to learn abcxyz from you, please show me" but "I don't know this, do you know it?" ?"
And of course I have shared it with them because they are my acquaintances, but I will only briefly say it and not say anything extra so that they can explore and learn for themselves.
because I'm afraid they know what I had to spend nearly 20 hours a day over the years to learn and do my own research. That's something I've encountered many times, it makes me have a feeling of anxiety and fear that they will learn what I share with them, they will become arrogant and forget what I have helped them .I was so obsessed
made me always fear that someone was watching me inside my computer even though there were no viruses, so I created some software to remove viruses.
but when it got to this point I realized WTF why should I be afraid of other people knowing what I've learned? As long as they have cloudy eyes due to continuously watching computers for long periods of time, spending almost all their time on work,
and go through the challenges that happen when coding, and a few years to understand what they're doing, they'll be as good as me, if it only took them a few months and a few years to learn everything I know, then I will congratulate them because they are a Genius I cannot compare with them
Maybe they are people that I will need to learn from in the future, instead of hating them. Since the thought popped into my head, I have temporarily stopped being obsessed with other people knowing about what I know. Even if I don't tell them, they will probably know at some point.
In a quote from someone I don't remember clearly: "Always compare yourself with who you were yesterday, instead of comparing with others" that won't do any good and it will only make you feel worse. You just worry and overthink