Why Am I Like this? ( PornAddiction Issue )

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fellas, why the fuck am i like this.  I need ur Help seriously plz.

I deleted all OF, porn content and commited myself for nofap,
even stop carding porn accounts, selling OF Accounts (thought its triggering me into this)

I made this decision 6 months earlier. Even I posted thread to CRACKED (here is that post), and other social medias. Hoping this make my willpower even stronger.

But I failed,
during this period,

I have fapped like more than 150 times ( Yeah, It's little improvement cuz usually do more than this.)

The thing I can force myself to go weeks without watching it. But When I slip, things go out of hand. I started to fap like ~15 times in a single day.

FYI ;
1. Age 22(M), Student
2. Use of Abusive Substances: NO 
3. Stress Issue: NO ( maybe little bit from College and shit)
4. I spend most of the time using PC (ScreenTime: ~13 hrs), yeah, I'm nerd. Also I don't talk to girls and don't have GF. but I usually go out for evening walk for refreshment.

This is my daily schedule. Don't know what still triggering me into this.
How can I overcome this urges?  .... This addiction has fucked my life completely.

At, this point I am feeling suicidal.

counting on you, B!

 

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go on the reddit no fap.

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idk bro porn is simply a way to make your days excited or smt like dat. when you fap you get that feeling that is the only real stimulant for all the day, thats why you feel so dependent from it. you need more stimulants n shit so that your mind can stop focusing on fapping. try and find a hoppy, try and smoke marjuana, go out more, start to trust yourself more and work on yourself. you'll find a girlfriend and your life will get better

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The reason you become addicted to masturbation is because you know nothing about women. As a married person, I was in your situation when I was younger, but it was much milder. If you continue like this, you will have serious problems with your kidneys and prostate. Even cancer.

You have been deceived by porn. Those things are all artificial illusions, and actual sex is not like that at all. In real nature, these situations of porn do not exist at all. Those actors had blooper many times, and they were pieced together and edited. So all your desires are based on fake videos.

The key to solving your problem is that you need to understand this industry, especially the real appearance of those actresses. You should be able to find their authentic reports. The more you understand the real appearance, the less likely you'll be addicted.

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Sounds like you have some form of anxiety, i would highly suggest seeking advice from your local GP and ask them to get you a script for the likes of Zoloft.

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What has helped people I know:
Consistently working out
Reading the Quran (even if you're not a muslim), I suggest u to follow the Muslim beliefs even for a month, and see how your life changesAllah says in the Quran, “Tell the believing men to lower their gaze (from Looking at Forbidden things), And protect their private parts (from illegal sexual Acts e.g). That is pure for them. Verily Allah is All aware what they do” [24:30]
 
Abu Huraira reported Allah's Messenger (PBUH) as saying.
”Allah fixed the very portion of adultery which a man will indulge in. There would be no escape from it. The adultery of the eye is the lustful look and the adultery of the ears is listening to voluptuous (song or talk) and the adultery of the tongue is licentious speech and the adultery of the hand is the lustful grip (embrace) and the adultery of the feet is to walk (to the place) where he intends to commit adultery and the heart yearns and desires which he may or may not put into effect” [Sahih Muslim, 2658a].
 
 Allah says, “And come not near adultery for it is a shameful (deed) and an evil, opening the road (to other evils)” [17:32]
 
"Indeed, Allah commands justice, grace, as well as generosity to close relatives. He forbids indecency, wickedness, and aggression. He instructs you so perhaps you will be mindful." [Quran 16:90]
 
Say, "My Lord has only forbidden immoralities - what is apparent of them and what is concealed - and sin,[sup]1[/sup] and oppression without right, and that you associate with Allāh that for which He has not sent down authority, and that you say about Allāh that which you do not know." [Quran 7:33]

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I started to fap like ~15 times in a single day.

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As a young child were you exposed to nudity ? Is your addiction an escape ? I am not going to give you a miracle advice, @DankoFR made good points; Exercise helpe me, anytime I got the urge I went for a run, running became my healthy escape from my demons. Soon after I started mindfunless at the Buddist temple. The faster you start disciplining your mind, the faster you get were you want to be. It took me 5 years.