OP 11 December, 2018 - 08:10 PM
So i'm at a really bad place where I've been isolated from general society for years, because of mental health issues, i'm a neet (not in education, employment or training), which is why i'm relatively poor and not doing too well, socially nor economically. I have tried countless methods of getting help and the Scandinavian society basically has me on life support with neet bux, I don't really have anything going for me.
I don't know if i'm a victim of circumstance or retarded, either way, it's very hard to live this way, and what helps is surrounding myself with material goods like: computer, tv, phone, speakers, watches, delivery food and alcohol/booze to take the worst of it. But in order to obtain those things I need money, which I don't got a lot of, hence why i'm here.
My initial thought was to begin cracking accounts and sell them for crypto, cash out and then maybe make a decent amount a month.
There is just one thing standing in my way, which is my anxiety, which basically makes me a pussy, literally makes me afraid of everything there is to be afraid of, and gives me a lot of irrational fears. I'm scared of getting caught, going to prison (even though in Scandinavia prisons/jails are not that scary), disappointing my family more than I have, ruining my life even though it feels ruined already, getting involved in something that would land me in either trouble or danger, and what if I crack some important e-mail of an American citizen and I extradited to America and have to serve prison there, I would have to kill myself or get killed.
These are the thoughts running wild in my mind, which makes it hard to do anything other than being passive and depressed . Does anyone experience anything similar, any advice how to overcome this struggle?
Sorry for long post :pupper:
I don't know if i'm a victim of circumstance or retarded, either way, it's very hard to live this way, and what helps is surrounding myself with material goods like: computer, tv, phone, speakers, watches, delivery food and alcohol/booze to take the worst of it. But in order to obtain those things I need money, which I don't got a lot of, hence why i'm here.
My initial thought was to begin cracking accounts and sell them for crypto, cash out and then maybe make a decent amount a month.
There is just one thing standing in my way, which is my anxiety, which basically makes me a pussy, literally makes me afraid of everything there is to be afraid of, and gives me a lot of irrational fears. I'm scared of getting caught, going to prison (even though in Scandinavia prisons/jails are not that scary), disappointing my family more than I have, ruining my life even though it feels ruined already, getting involved in something that would land me in either trouble or danger, and what if I crack some important e-mail of an American citizen and I extradited to America and have to serve prison there, I would have to kill myself or get killed.
These are the thoughts running wild in my mind, which makes it hard to do anything other than being passive and depressed . Does anyone experience anything similar, any advice how to overcome this struggle?
Sorry for long post :pupper: